Saturday, January 11, 2020

The First Time

robbietobby

In the beginning, we have been wondering how'd we got in this position yet now I just wonder how I survive from the unexpected crash of heart. It took almost two months to replenished and live life again to the fullest then I ever known. I immediately took the world for granted by being ignorant to toxic surprises that the world offers at work, family, friends and even the news because I prioritized this summer love.





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Hi! - It's the first time seeing you around.
The first time we hang out for a date after long chapters of conversations.
We both found ourselves in a dark place you said you had never been before.
What's this?
We almost lack a bow tie to become formally dressed while there were roller blades on our feet.
The place is as cold and icy but it's not winter.
I remember you said that you never get used to this, so I immediately took those hands and taught you how to move.
We spend, we sway, we stumble, we glide, and we took memories.
Never could I imagine that there is someone like you who would make my world fall out of love. With all aspects of this love, I began to realize that we almost live in a huge palace.
And in there, brewing coffee, serve your significant half, cherish together and live as one body and soul, King of my heart.

Hey! - It's the first time he is grinning from ear to ear.
A small tickle turns my cheeks to red.
I started to feel the burning sensation inside and turn this untouchable heart to become unbreakable as diamonds.
I can't see any of his corneas when he smiles.
And I almost kneel as I've seen the face of an angel, I never could have asked for more.
We exchanged vows, although there's a bit lacking my confidence, cause that's how I supposed to do with a little of charm and poise.
I don't know why but when I ask my co-Libra we have a lot of things in common during dating.
One, we're shy even they bring out the best in us.
Two, we're comfortable, fell asleep and the universe is tranquil when they're around.
Third, we're on the edge of our very own emotions.
Everything is settled in balance. 

And hey! - It's the first time he would make my world the most important thing he'll look up to, yes you did.
I found my guardian angel sent from above.
There were lots of pace, back and forth, of deep love, subtle peace, loving messages, likey video chats, and more love letters and etc.
He always surprised me with lots of abundance gifts that I appreciate, so I always went straight home with blushing cheeks.
He took his time to memorize me, my features, my schedules, my body language, my figures, my speech, my favorites, my gestures, my routine, my attitude, my everything, all at once.
And I found myself the essential being as if I wore this magical crown.
He let his work done before his work get started and it was the sweetest thing I've ever imagine that someone did it for you. The first time I thought maybe we could be forever.

YEY! -
It's the first time I give more than I take because his happiness makes me the happiest.
For long six months, my spirits gather to form as discerned gift ready to sacrifice everything for my first, one true love.
Every day I bow and pray for this love to last a forever and if not I could spend another lifetime.
All I can see is as just as clear blue water.

When skies grew darker, currents swept you out. For seconds you lose counts.
You let all things you were once found beautiful become routinely, slowly, suddenly... disappearing. What now? I could almost blame myself. 

Its the first time you realize that happiness isn't found.
Its the first time I realize that the person who could bring you happiness is the one who could bring you the most pain. 

It's the first time you hold the bow and someone else pulls back the arrow aimed at your chest.
The first time you'll ever know what it's like when it's over. 

It's the first time you feel completely helpless like you're reaching out for something but it just slips through your fingers.
No matter how we both wanted it, it will never work out in the end.
When first love ends, you wonder if you ever knew what it even was.
If what you was even real. 

I learn to laugh, to cry, to hold on, to let go.
And maybe if I'll love again, I'll love better, and maybe this time, longer.





P.S. Some words adapted from scriptures of Chris Lim and Brian Lee, you guys have the best cinematography with great selection of stories. 

Thursday, January 9, 2020

LOVER’S CONVERSATION

Hi?
Hello 
I’m ME!
You’re cool 
Howdy?
Good, started to feel crazy
I think you’ll fulfill one of my prayers
Maybe you’re not even human, you’re an angel
Good Morning Baby!
Rise and Shine Baby!
Sleepwell
Late Night Talks are fun
Look at me
You look fab
Where you at?
C’mon here, I’ll take you to these places
Uh-Oh its a bit dangerous, (won’t do it again)
We should do this again
He grins.
He believes.
They continue.
They knew they’re both belong.

Hi, again!
This is my Mom
Thanks for the lunch
Anytime, sweet munchkin
I’m pregnant
Oh! I’m pregnant, too..!?
Lets play: It was so nice picking ChasΓ©
Yup. But I like learning French and not that at all
But, can we play?
Hmmm... Sure for you!
I’m about to sleep
I’m getting moody in here
Stay put, take a look at why we started
Do you still belive in me?
I do I do I do everytime. I love you I love you
I love you as not just I got that boom
Then, there were two beautiful souls.
They stay on each other minds like a sound.
They surrender their flaws.
They felt forever love.

It was such a good time with your friends
Like you more when your hand on my hand
You got a heart
I’m ugly
Its your purest heart!
I only want you
Me too
Kisses
Uhhhh, this is heaven
Unpurely but satisfied
Lemme get in there
Noo lemme get into you
I’m on the top of the world
I’ll be your humblest joker
Time was frozen.
Daylight’s golden.
Sinkin’ deep ocean.
They’re both on the same wavelength.



Motivated now
Braver and bolder, I guess
You’re thougthful than I’ve ever known
You’ve thought me how to daydream
Today, I felt like a satellite
Why is it then?
My world revolves around you
No, you’re my forever oxygen
Hug me
Stay and don’t make me feel blue
How do you like the sound of my own voice?
Not-so-good, but it makes me shiver
I feel warm when you’re here
I feel the rush in my veins too
But it feels nice when you’re here in my arms
Take me to the limit and lets run away
They both stay.
They both keep going away.
They sail on the same ocean.
They sounded like they’re too far from the shore. To far from going home.

What have I done?
I just want you closer
Don’t you feel I’m closer?
This happens when your world becomes my world
I’ve left the orchestra for you, ain’t that enough?
You’re more than enough, I just..
I’ve confessed to my mother, how that does sound to you?
I fancy you: you’re a challenge, that cute voice, that ..
I’m so done
Let’s settle this please
Don’t beg
I’m sorry
You’re not sorry
I think we are challenged
They are young and reckless.
Lost in a maze.
They believe that love transcends time and space.
They we’re both numb and feel dumb.

Talk to me
..
Look, I’m okay now.
..
C’mon
Its just a red sign, but not gonna left you
I just wanted to thank you for everything
What does it mean?
I like to be alone
We surely can make this through
No, we’re lost
I’m gonna find a way how..
..
..
..
..
The lovers lose in signal.
Sparks fly faded.
The sun never been so bright.
But everything surely happens for a reason.

Sunday, January 5, 2020

Dancing “Tala” by Sarah Geronimo with friends ❤


Dancing next to my friends is one of my 2020 goals!.. Hope you enjoy the vid. Cheers to more fun dancing! 

Saturday, January 4, 2020

Taylor Swift's "Reputation" Album Quotes

From: https://weheartit.com/entry/300839697

..Ready For It

Every love I've known in comparison is a failure.


End Game 


I don't wanna touch you, I don't wanna be, just another ex-love you don't wanna see.

.. tried to forget it, but we just couldn't and I bury hatchets, but I keep maps of where I put 'em

I swear I don't love the drama, it loves me.

And I can't let you go, your handprints on my soul,
It's like your eyes are liquor, it's like your body is gold.


I Did Something Bad

So I play 'em like a violin and I make it look oh-so-easy

They say I did something bad, then why's it feel so good?


Don't Blame Me

Don't blame me -  love made me crazy if it doesn't you ain't doing it right.

For you, I will fall from grace just to touch your face


Delicate

This ain't for the best.
My reputation's never been worse, so you must like me for me.


Look What You Made Me Do

I don't like your little games, the role you made me play.

I don't like your perfect crime, how you laugh when you lie

But I got smarter, I got harder in the nick of time.
I rose up from the dead, I do it all the time.

The world moves on, another day, another drama, 
But not for me, all I think about is karma.

I don't trust nobody and nobody trusts me I'll be the actress starring in your bad dreams


So It Goes...

'Cause we break down a little but when you get me alone, it's so simple

I'm yours to keep and I'm yours to lose

I make all your grey days clear and wear you like a necklace


Gorgeous

You should think about the consequence of your magnetic field being a little too strong.

You're so cool, it makes me hate you so much.

You've ruined my life, by not being mine.

You're so gorgeous, I can't say anything to your face.

And I'm so furious, at you for making me feel this way.

And you should think about the consequence of you touching my hand in a darkened room

Ocean blue eyes looking in mine, I feel like I might sink and drown and die.

You make me so happy it turns back to sad,
There's nothing I hate more than what I can't have
You are so gorgeous it makes me so mad.


Getaway Car

The ties were black, the lies were white

X marks the spot, where we fell apart,
He poisoned the well, I was lying to myself.

We were flying, but we'd never get far

It was the great escape, the prison break.

And a circus ain't a love story, and now we're both sorry


King Of My Heart

I'm perfectly fine, I live on my own, I made up my mind, I'm better off being alone.

Now you try on calling me, baby, like trying on clothes

And all at once, you are the one I have been waiting for
King of my heart, body, and soul...

Your love is a secret I'm hoping, dreaming, dying to keep.

Change my priorities, the tastes of your lips is my idea of luxury

Is this the end of all the endings?
My broken bones are mending,
With all these nights we're spending.


Dancing With Our Hands Tied

My love had been frozen deep blue, but you painted me golden.

I loved you in spite of deep fears that the world would divide us


Dress

There is an indentation, in the shape of you. Made your mark on me, a golden tattoo.

Say my name and everything just stops I don't want you like a best friend.

Only bought this dress so you could take it off.

Carve your name into my bedpost cause I don't want you like a best friend.

If I get burned, at least we were electrified.

Even in my worst times, you could see the best of me.

Even in my worst lies, you saw the truth in me.


This Is Why We Can't Have Nice Things

So why'd you have to rain on my parade?  I'm shaking my head, I'm locking the gates.

This is why we can't have nice things, darling. Because you break them,
I had to take them away

This is why we can't have nice things, honey
Did you think I wouldn't hear all the things you said about me?

It was so nice being friends again
There I was giving you a second chance
But you stabbed me in the back while shaking my hand

Here's a toast to my real friends, they don't care about that he said, she said.


Call It What You Want

I brought a knife to a gunfight.

They took the crown but it's alright.

My baby's fit like a daydream, walking with his head down, I'm the one he's walking to.

My baby's fly like a jet stream, high above the whole scene, loves me like I'm brand new.

All my flowers grew back as thorns.
Windows boarded up after the storm.

All the drama queens taking swings,
All the jokers dressing up as kings,
They fade to nothing when I look at him.

And I know I make the same mistakes every time, bridges burn, I never learn at least I did one thing right.

I want to wear his initial on a chain around my neck
Chain round my neck
Not because he owns me
But 'cause he really knows me

"You don't need to save me, but would you run away with me?"


New Year's Day

Don't read the last page
But I stay when you're lost, and I'm scared
And you're turning away

Hold on to the memories, they will hold on to you

I want your midnights but I'll be cleaning up bottles with you on New Year's Day.

Please don't ever become a stranger,
Whose laugh I could recognize anywhere.

Thursday, January 2, 2020

LOOKING BACK TO WHAT I'VE ACHIEVED - MY 2018 / 2019 GOALS



Sharing to you my 2018 - 2019 goals list. This long list contains plans that I'd like to achieve, have more to strive for, and more opportunities to make myself better. Now, out of the list below those that are marked with "◦" were not yet achieved while those marked with "✓" are achieved and can be achieved again in the following year. If you can see these goals are not specific, but moving forward this 2020 I'll have it a bit specific.


2018 MAJOR GOALS
(January 2018 - November 2018)

Divine Intervention: 
◦ Attend Mass Every Sunday 
◦ Pray every night 
✓ Pray before and after the meal 
✓ Visit adoration chapel right after jogging 
✓ Charity episodes 
◦ Blog a God-related post 

Self-love: 
◦ Brace ✓ 
New Fab Clothes 
✓ Whittier Skin 
◦ 60.kg by the month of Oct 

Family Goals: 
✓ Dreamhouse goal 
✓ To dine once in a while 
✓ Check health status 
✓ 2-day Vacation 
✓ Family Outreach Vacation 

Friendship Goals: 
✓ To bond once in a while

More Goals: 
✓ Find a new job 
✓ Update Resume 
✓ Medical 2018 
✓ Jog 15 times/month 
✓ Improve vocabulary 
✓ Promote in a job 
✓ Revamp blog 
✓ Read a letter to any friend 
◦ Update entries (at least 2/month) 
✓ Revamped Instagram 
✓ Revamped updated pictures in facebook 
✓ No love life 2018 
◦ Travel solo 
✓ Hike a mountain 
◦ Buy a bike 
◦ Travel out of the country 
✓ Recreate my room 
✓ Upgrade cellphone 
✓ Establish connections with PH songwriters 
◦ Perform in a stage 
✓ Perform at Way Of The Cross 
✓ Fix a problem at work 
✓ Fix a self-fight 
◦ Learn how to cook 
✓ Dance at the beach 
✓ Party hard 
✓ Collect species 
✓ Familiarize self with cars and motor and its parts 
✓ Update planner 2018 regularly (til Nov) 
✓ Consult travel abroad for work 
◦ Plant a flowering plant 
◦ Make a video dedicated to Aunties 
✓ Make a video to oneself 
✓ Check-Up Skin Disease 
◦ Join in a dance club 
◦ Buy new shoes 
✓ Prepare a healthy milkshake or drinks 
◦ Read a novel 
✓ Post a vlog about Adventures 
✓ Visit a museum 
✓ Achieved 5/5 goals at VMV with a rate of 4 as min. to 4.9 (achievable) 
✓ Review Biology related Journal once a while 
✓ Creat 2019 Goals into more provisionary state 
✓ Check K-Landian Goals 2K18 with those beautiful people 
✓ Join in a bazaar 
✓ Archive Pictures (IG and GDrive) 
✓ Conduct a Workshop 
✓ Prepare an Examination

🌞🌞🌞


2019 GOALS
(Started December 2018- November 2019) 

I. SELF IMPROVEMENT 
✓ NO LOL FOR 5 DAYS 
✓ NO LOL FOR 10 DAYS 
✓ NO LOL FOR 20 DAYS 
◦ NO LOL FOR 30 DAYS 
✓ NO LATES FOR 3 CONSECUTIVE MONTH 
✓ NO LATES FOR 75 DAYS 
✓ Engage in a spectacular business 
✓ Join in a club (any organization) 
◦ Practice music arts 
◦ Learn how to play instruments 
◦ Participate in a campaign (tree planting, walk for psoriasis) 
◦ Give a talk in a symposium 
◦ Learn how to drive 
◦ Plant a garden of thorn 
✓ Participate in any church activities 
◦ IQ TEST 
✓ Read 2 books/week 
◦ Read 3 books/week 

II. FINANCIAL DEVELOPMENT 
✓ Q1 - 25,000 
✓ Q2 - 40,000 
✓ Q3 - 60,000 
✓ Q4 - 70,000 

III. LOVE INTEREST 
✓ Meet professional people 
✓ Have dinner on the 20th of the month (minimum of twice/year)
✓ Cooked 5 meals/month 
◦ Cooked 10 meals/month 
◦ Cooked 20 dishes of foods /month 
✓ Cooked food for love ones 
✓ Reconnect with any ex (friendship) 
✓ Donated in any charity/beggar (up to Php 100.00) 
◦ Travel out-of-town with BFF 

IV. COMPUTER LITERACY PROGRAM 
◦ Create a videogram 
✓ Revamp Instagram
✓ Consult or canvass an AutoCAD learning facility for a potential computer studying

 V. TRAVEL 
✓ Travel with friends (Any place)
✓ Travel with family (Any place) 

VI. PROFESSIONAL 
✓ Find a job with a salary of 20,000 min 
✓ Apply in URC Flour Division 
✓ PROMOTED in a job 

VII. CRAZY CHALLENGES (Test your fear) 
✓ Send a friend request to former ... for 24 hours 
✓ Unfriend again on December 31, 2018