Saturday, January 11, 2020

The First Time

robbietobby

In the beginning, we have been wondering how'd we got in this position yet now I just wonder how I survive from the unexpected crash of heart. It took almost two months to replenished and live life again to the fullest then I ever known. I immediately took the world for granted by being ignorant to toxic surprises that the world offers at work, family, friends and even the news because I prioritized this summer love.





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Hi! - It's the first time seeing you around.
The first time we hang out for a date after long chapters of conversations.
We both found ourselves in a dark place you said you had never been before.
What's this?
We almost lack a bow tie to become formally dressed while there were roller blades on our feet.
The place is as cold and icy but it's not winter.
I remember you said that you never get used to this, so I immediately took those hands and taught you how to move.
We spend, we sway, we stumble, we glide, and we took memories.
Never could I imagine that there is someone like you who would make my world fall out of love. With all aspects of this love, I began to realize that we almost live in a huge palace.
And in there, brewing coffee, serve your significant half, cherish together and live as one body and soul, King of my heart.

Hey! - It's the first time he is grinning from ear to ear.
A small tickle turns my cheeks to red.
I started to feel the burning sensation inside and turn this untouchable heart to become unbreakable as diamonds.
I can't see any of his corneas when he smiles.
And I almost kneel as I've seen the face of an angel, I never could have asked for more.
We exchanged vows, although there's a bit lacking my confidence, cause that's how I supposed to do with a little of charm and poise.
I don't know why but when I ask my co-Libra we have a lot of things in common during dating.
One, we're shy even they bring out the best in us.
Two, we're comfortable, fell asleep and the universe is tranquil when they're around.
Third, we're on the edge of our very own emotions.
Everything is settled in balance. 

And hey! - It's the first time he would make my world the most important thing he'll look up to, yes you did.
I found my guardian angel sent from above.
There were lots of pace, back and forth, of deep love, subtle peace, loving messages, likey video chats, and more love letters and etc.
He always surprised me with lots of abundance gifts that I appreciate, so I always went straight home with blushing cheeks.
He took his time to memorize me, my features, my schedules, my body language, my figures, my speech, my favorites, my gestures, my routine, my attitude, my everything, all at once.
And I found myself the essential being as if I wore this magical crown.
He let his work done before his work get started and it was the sweetest thing I've ever imagine that someone did it for you. The first time I thought maybe we could be forever.

YEY! -
It's the first time I give more than I take because his happiness makes me the happiest.
For long six months, my spirits gather to form as discerned gift ready to sacrifice everything for my first, one true love.
Every day I bow and pray for this love to last a forever and if not I could spend another lifetime.
All I can see is as just as clear blue water.

When skies grew darker, currents swept you out. For seconds you lose counts.
You let all things you were once found beautiful become routinely, slowly, suddenly... disappearing. What now? I could almost blame myself. 

Its the first time you realize that happiness isn't found.
Its the first time I realize that the person who could bring you happiness is the one who could bring you the most pain. 

It's the first time you hold the bow and someone else pulls back the arrow aimed at your chest.
The first time you'll ever know what it's like when it's over. 

It's the first time you feel completely helpless like you're reaching out for something but it just slips through your fingers.
No matter how we both wanted it, it will never work out in the end.
When first love ends, you wonder if you ever knew what it even was.
If what you was even real. 

I learn to laugh, to cry, to hold on, to let go.
And maybe if I'll love again, I'll love better, and maybe this time, longer.





P.S. Some words adapted from scriptures of Chris Lim and Brian Lee, you guys have the best cinematography with great selection of stories. 

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